Me...

Bismillah, I think that's the best way to start, in the name of Allah. I'm Rahma and a muslimah (muslim woman) so is my father, and my fathers father, you can say I was born lucky but there was a time even I didn't know it. In my childhood years I attended islamic schools where I was thought to read the Qur'an and other islamic stuff but maybe I was too young to understand or maybe I just didn't care but as I got older I stopped going, started praying less, only when I remember to or when it was convenient. I was generally existing, doing things that 'regular people' did, now 'regular' ofcourse depends on who u ask, for me it was parties, clubs and boys..you know regular stuff.lol. I carried a scarf too, that wasn't always in its proper place but I carried one non the less. Don't get me wrong I wasn't the devil's re-incarnate but I wasn't a saint either, I was just doing regular stuff. I knew of course I could be a better person, somehow we all know that, but we are just not ready, stopped by a fear, of maybe missing out in all the fun or of people's reactions or something but a fear exists. Then one day something happened, a tragedy if u please or perhaps my biggest blessing! And it got me thinking, maybe I grew bored or tired or something else but I GREW and I started to pray. Now about tragedies I heard, could either bring you closer to God or draw you further away. You can guess what it dis to me, I started to pray then read, I started to seek knowledge about my deen(faith) to re-educate myself. Then one day, I decided to wear the hijab because I wanted to be identified as a muslim woman and that I was proud, wanted to represent my faith. I also wanted to receive the "salaam", that always made me happy. Then ofcourse people that knew me would ask, "what's up with the veil?" Or "why" some people generally became aprehensive of me, it was said I'd become "religious" now. Why would I just choose to cover myself up? I realised even as muslims there was so little we knew about islam and most non-muslims were clueless. All that most people got was what the media said, how muslim women are oppressed and how muslims are just a bunch or terrorist and that islam was strict. Think its only fair that and a duty upon muslims to try and clear such misconceptions, the prohet (SAW) said to us to share his message even if it is 1 ayya(line). Islam is truly a beautiful religion. The "rules" are simply guidelines from our creator on how man can reach his full potential, its like when you buy a product and it comes with a manual, from the manufacturer and it has all these tips and advice on usage, who best to tell you those things than the one who made the product? islam is a house full of beauty and function and insha Allah (god's willing) I shall explore the rooms, Allah assit me in conveying the truth as it is and forgive my short comings, when i had the idea i sought the counsel of my muslim brothers and sisters and the were very helpful, may Allah reward them for it. Now people call me an "Uztaz", i wish, am just a regular muslimah and my knowledge is limited, if I do make mistakes please correct me, your comments, questions and contributions are more than welcome. Lets learn as Allah says in the Quran "are those equal to those who do not know? but only men of understanding will pay heed". May Allah guide us...